That relationship ended way back in Feburary. You were nice but I just couldn't do it. I no longer felt the same. Why do you still feel the same about me even after many months apart? Never meant to hurt you and sorry for the pain that you are going through. Just please get over it already.

Apprehension

I'm no longer looking forward to the week long trip in February. Just want this over with already. Kind of a bitch thing to say and feel.....

Smile and fake it

Time for plan B....wait, what's plan B?!

Plans to go to school in Mexico fell through. Missed the deadline to pay a fee and now I cannot take the entrance exam. What I want to do now is to apply to as many universities as I can in Wisconsin, hopefully get accepted to the ones I really want and go to school. But the thought of doing all that paperwork again is deterring me. Not just the paperwork....just thinking about what I'm going to do once I graduate. I know it'll be years for that to happen but it still sits on my mind, wondering if I'm wasting my time pursing this degree. I really do want this though so why is there doubt in my head? Am I being logical?

Rough Ride

Will I be able to handle this? Too late to ask myself this now that I jumped into the relationship. I don't regret it at all, I really like this guy. Just that it's been 2-3 years since I've dated anyone and the fact that this relationship is a long distance one adds even more pressure.

*Remember: Just enjoy the moment.

Only You by Della Swiss

Only you
Only you
Only you
Is all I see or do

Only you
Only you
Only you
Is all I see or do

I might seem disconnected
There maybe some confusion
But what you got
Is what I like
So don't be shy
Cause most of all

It's only you
Only you
Only you
Is all I see or do

Only you
Only you
Only you
Is all I see or do

Don't ask why
There's no answer
And in time
We'll get better
All of this
The game of it
So don't be shy
Cause most of all

It's only you
Only you
Only you
Is all I see or do

Only you
Only you
Only you
Is all I see or do

It's only you
Only you
Only you
Is all I see or do

Only you
Only you
Only you
Is all I see or do

Della Swiss Website

That doesn't happen everyday

So recently I've decided to take a 3 day vacation to Utah. Why? Well, I'll be visiting a friend. For the first time. How we met is probably the nerdiest way ever. Ok, not really but it is odd, haha. It was on X-Box Live.

Nerd

(Or geek, I never know which term to use.)
It's not so bad, people meet online all the time now days. (Yes, that helps me sleep at night.)

The main reason why I decided to go is because I just wanted to do something spontaneous. My life has always been the same routine, over and over again. Risky? Yes, but I don't really care. I just need to get the hell out of here, even if it's just for a weekend.

Absolutely

Saturday afternoon:

"Am I getting laid tomorrow?"
*Shakes Magic 8 Ball*