Am I being optimistic or just in denial?

I don't know. I'm usually optimistic about life and constantly telling myself that things will get better. I've been saying that for so many years now. I've lost count. That phrase is starting to get old. But I can't give up. Giving up is not an option. I'm just in a rut right now, especially since something terrible recently happen to my family. Inspiration will come back to me, I know it.
Or maybe I'm just completly worn out. I now have a second job. Working two jobs and going to school at the same time....there's very little time for me to breathe. I just need some air, lol.