Keep your head up

Things will eventually work out.



Thank you for talking to me, bro.
Calmed me down just a bit =P

Welcome to the Real World

The thought of living with 5 strangers is finally starting to make me feel a little uneasy. I already live with 4 people (parents and 2 other siblings) but that's family and it's in a home. Not sure yet but I'll probably be staying in an apartment with 4 small bedrooms, living room, bathroom, and a kitchen. That's cool that the school I'm going to attend have several apartment complexes reserved for just for students. So it's kinda like dorms but WAY better.

I highly doubt that I'll be staying in that specific one. That's too nice. I opted for the cheapest possible place to stay at.

Of course I'll have a roommate, that's nothing new. I have a roommate now (lil sis). That's not my main concern. What I'm worried about is will I mesh well with their personalities? My god....how old will they be? Haha, a fuckin' 22 year old living with a bunch of 18 year olds >.<
Makes me feel so old! Are they organized or messy folks? Well, whatever comes my way, I'm sure I'll be able to handle it. Don't really have a choice, lol.
Being an introvert, I think that this will help me open up more. And meet a bunch of new people. I'm getting excited again XD
Open house is this Saturday and I can't wait to go to that. I might be taking photographs and recording videos. If they allow it.

A cop made my day <3

Who'd of thought that it would ever happen?? Sunday, I was waiting for my brother at a train station parking lot, listening to music with the car door wide open (there were a lot of bees flying around and if one happens to fly in, I can easily escape). I didn't notice the cop driving by and he parked right next to me and asked if everything was alright. He thought that I was stranded but everything was working fine and I told him I was waiting for my brother. I was feeling really bummed out that day and I guess he saw that in my face. He asked me what was wrong. I told him what was on my mind....after listening to what I had to say, he gave me some words of wisdom. Just lifted my spirits.....it's amazing what good things that strangers can do. And one that's a cop! Usually, they tend to ruin people's days, lol. I'm grateful for that conversation that we had.

Wake up

I think I did, again, for the second time. I just hope that I stay awake this time. And don't forget why it's better off for me to just let go.

This feeling of free is phenomenal.

I got accepted!

I finally received a letter from my college and I am in!

So excited, I just can't wait to go.
I'm just a little terrified about the cost of attending the school. My gosh, I'm know that I have to take a bunch of loans =[ I think that in the end, it'll all be worth it. This is where I want to go and what I want to do with my life.

Not as bad as I thought....so far :P

Finally, I'm in my last class for the semester and then I will graduate in May. I really feared this class, Accounting for Business, because well, I did take it in the past but withdrew because it was hard, I couldn't understand anything. Plus the teacher was a complete ass. I don't know what his problem was but I was not learning from him, so I dropped it. Now I'm taking it again and it's with a different teacher and she is really nice. At first, I thought that I wasn't really going to learn anything from her either just because of the fact that she was nice. People say that the best teachers are the one's you fear/hate. I finally see now that it's not true. It's rare to see that here in Racine anyway, with the shitty school systems. I can't really say anything about UW schools though, since I've never been.
It's been a couple classes so it is too soon to say this but I think that I'll be alright :)

Am I being optimistic or just in denial?

I don't know. I'm usually optimistic about life and constantly telling myself that things will get better. I've been saying that for so many years now. I've lost count. That phrase is starting to get old. But I can't give up. Giving up is not an option. I'm just in a rut right now, especially since something terrible recently happen to my family. Inspiration will come back to me, I know it.
Or maybe I'm just completly worn out. I now have a second job. Working two jobs and going to school at the same time....there's very little time for me to breathe. I just need some air, lol.