Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Don't mess this up!

Everything seems "cool" now, just friends and that's it. Yet I want more than that....again. Not the sex but to be in an actual relationship with him. I hate how my emotions changes constantly and I never know what I truly want. Kinda like a bi-polar person having mood swings. I just just need to wait it out and let it fade away. I know that if I open my mouth and tell him what I feel, it will mess everything up all over again.

Even if I do say something, it won't matter because he doesn't feel the same way, not anymore.
"I will never care for you....the way you care for me."
"I know...."

That is harsh but at least he's not playing around and telling me lies. Like most of the guys that I've dealt with in my past.


Stephanie Faris said...

I've been there before. I found in the end I just had to walk away because friendship was never enough.

Randomization said...

I think losing a friend is a lot worse....and harder than ending a relationship with a significant other. At least for me since I have very few friends to begin with.

This is how I feel:
"It's better for that person to be in my life than not at all."

As long as the friendship is a healthy one.