Weakness

My friend Anthony told me that the fact that I try to see the good in everyone is a weakness. Some people are just born evil.

What do you think?

Not the same

Friday night with Alex was....meh. We went to see a movie and then hung out at his place afterwards. I try to make conversation but whatever I talk about, dies pretty quickly. Making conversation with anyone is a pretty difficult task for me to do.

With Alex, it's just damn near impossible. I can't really open up to him and be myself around him anymore. Now I'm just up-tight, quiet...BORING. Ahh, I don't like to be thought of as a boring person! -.-

Reacquainted

Had a meeting at work the other day. We were all forced to go so that meant I was going to see Alex. The whole time I was able to avoid him at work but not this time. I was kinda nervous to go because I didn't know what to say when I saw him...couldn't even decide if I should say anything at all. The moment I walked through the doors, he was the first person I saw. Didn't recognize him at first, had to do a double take. He grew out his hair....normally, he just shaves his head. I smiled, walked over to him, opened my arms and gave him a hug. Surprised myself, didn't expect that to be my reaction. Also hate admitting that I missed him. I haven't seen him since the last days of summer....I had to walk away, what we had was torture.

After the meeting, we talked for a little bit, catching up. And made plans to hang out later on today. Not really nervous but....I don't know, I'll see how it goes.

Rotting Away

Hmm, I wonder what class I'd be in at the moment if I was in school this semester. I think that today was supposed to be the first day of class. Move-in day was last week.

I can feel my brain rotting away since I'm currently not in school.

Hopefully, I'll be attending in August but until then, I would like to start reading some books. I just don't know where to start. So I was wondering if anyone out there could recommend anything? Doesn't matter what genre it's in, I'm open for anything.

Eeny, meeny, miny, moe

My piggy bank is almost full and I'm not sure what to spend it on. I was planning on using the money for a haircut but I was thinking about getting a haircut for free. I can get it for free from the technical school I graduated from. Since they are students and need heads to practice on, the cuts are free. But I don't know, that's kinda scary. It'll save me $40 bucks though....and use the money somewhere else. I'm estimating that my piggy bank will turn out to be around $120.
So, what to spend it on?.....

I've been dying to get one of these FOREVER

I don't really care for a screen unless it's the iTouch (my niece has that, so jealous!) and that's way too expensive so it's not an option. Plus I must have my playlist at random all the times. I just don't know what color to get, blue or green?!

Or I should just go for a new bedding set, now that it's on sale.

Ahh, Roxy bedding <3

OR some crazy/weird/cute shoes.

Like neon pumps.

Maybe buy the perfume that I fell in love with.


There are plenty of other things that I want but still not sure what to get. Only time will tell.

Anything inspirational?

I love this....



....even though it's an ad for jeans.

It seems inspirational and moving, even though the whole video probably means nothing at all. I think its the voice and the words make it seem so touching. Too bad I found out about this poem by Walt Whitman from a jean commercial. Does it make me want to go out and buy Levi's jeans? No. But I think the video is beautiful. Why does something so creative end up being a freakin commercial??

Makes me wonder why movies can't be made to move people, more often anyway. I mean really MOVE, touch-the-soul type stuff. Yeah, a really hilarious comedy, mind-numbing action movies are fun to watch but is there anything inspirational out there? Any recommendations?

Well, it doesn't have to be inspirational....something that would touch the soul. The last thing I can remember that moved me was Crash. Yeah....that's long ago.

Go Away

Sometime last week, I received another email from my ex Brandon. Hopefully this will be the last I hear from him. Not sure if I mentioned this but somehow, he found out my number and left me voice messages. The messages stated that he came to my work and saw me but I looked busy so he didn't bother me. That seems kinda stalkerish.
Anyways, here is the email he sent me:

Hey,
It's been a long time. Too long. I find it kind of strange that after almost three years you don't have anything to say to me or even want to talk to me. I thought things would be different after all this time, but I guess instead of talking to me, you just give me the silent treatment, I had no idea that people still pull that high school game and not talk to someone they once knew. Good luck in with school.
---Brandon


Ok, it's been a little over 2 years but whatever. I don't feel like wasting anymore time. A year with him and his mom was more than enough. He needs to get over it already.