It's twenty seconds till the last call

You're going "hey hey hey hey hey hey"
Lie down you know it's easy
Like we did it over summer long

I'll be anything you ask and more...

Click to listen ^_^

That is my summer song for '09. Not exactly sure why, I don't normally choose songs to represent a particular year. I just love that it's a rock song that's so danceable. Or is it indie rock? Whatever, it's just pure awesomeness.

I remember in '05, my HS graduation year, my summer song was Girl by Beck. Still in love with it, although it's morbid. And I think in '07, the songs were Young Folks by Peter, Bjorn & John and Lazy Eye by Silversun Pickups.
The lyrics don't really relate to the season. So I don't really know why I put them under this category. Weird, I know but it wouldn't be me any other way.


I almost forgot this one: I Gotta Feeling by Black Eyed Peas. Even though the song is unbelievably repetitive. Sadly, I just found out about this song a week ago. Summer is almost over, lol. I don't like BEP which is why I found out about it pretty late. It's such a feel good song, there hasn't been one out lately.

Fill up my cup
Mazel tov
Look at her dancing
Just take it... OFF
Lets paint the town
We'll shut it down
Let's burn the roof
And then we'll do it again

I gotta feeling....that tonight's gonna be a good night.

I should create a list of all of my summer songs. Haha, I can't even bring myself make a cd mix. Eh, I'll do that in a another blog...someday.

It hasn't kicked in yet but when it does....

It's gonna suck. My niece is leaving to go to college today. We're really close, pretty much best friends. We hung out almost everyday during the summer. Now that she is leaving, seems like my summer is over. Quite depressing.

Haha, she just came over to say goodbye. And I decided that I'm going with her today since she wants me to come along. Just to help her set up the dorm and hang out for the last time. Well, it's not really the last time but since the distance is almost two hours away, visits will be limited. *sigh* Just the thought of the amount of gas that I have to put back in when I come back.....oh well, I know that it'll be worth it.

Wake up

I think I did, again, for the second time. I just hope that I stay awake this time. And don't forget why it's better off for me to just let go.

This feeling of free is phenomenal.

Awe

I was playing Wii games with my little sister the other day. One of the games we played was a shooting game, where you shoot random bulls-eyes and things that fly in the air. It reminded me of Duck Hunt....when I was her age, maybe younger. She's 9 at the moment.

Haha, the graphics were horrible!
And it was on the NES, not the SuperNES

Before that, when I wasn't born, was this:

Pong
When I think about it, it just amazes me how for we've gone with technology. Not just in video games but with everything. I can't even imagine what's in store for us in the future....when my little sister reaches my age.

Don't mess this up!

Everything seems "cool" now, just friends and that's it. Yet I want more than that....again. Not the sex but to be in an actual relationship with him. I hate how my emotions changes constantly and I never know what I truly want. Kinda like a bi-polar person having mood swings. I just just need to wait it out and let it fade away. I know that if I open my mouth and tell him what I feel, it will mess everything up all over again.

Even if I do say something, it won't matter because he doesn't feel the same way, not anymore.

"I will never care for you....the way you care for me."

"I know...."
That is harsh but at least he's not playing around and telling me lies. Like most of the guys that I've dealt with in my past.

I forgot her birthday

It was yesterday...I can still wish her a belated birthday but should I? I mean, we don't really talk to each other anymore. It's mostly my fault since I'm horrible at keeping in touch. I've lost many friends that way and continue to do so. Why do I have to be so stubborn over insignificant crap like this? I don't know, I'm just dumb.
Hehe...I decided I'm going to text her.

Been doing lots of writing

Just not on here :P
Yeah, it's weird because I've never really write a lot. Before, I'd force my self to sit and write something onto a page and it was usually bland and boring. I just didn't want people to get into my head so I don't write any details what so ever. Now, I just let loose and write every single thought that comes into my head, even if it's not important, like having the sudden urge to use the bathroom. Even though they seem like meaningless scribbles on a page, I read through it and get inspired to write a song. Yep, I'm a songwriter....not a good one and only write the lyrics but hey, I enjoy doing it. The only problem though is that I tend to get writer's block after just a few lines. Then I start a new song and it happens again. I've managed to complete a song, but I still think it has to go through a lot of editing still. Haha! My problem is that I expect the songs to just flow out of my head and onto the paper without editing. I'll try to just let go and do the editing after it's finished instead of during the writing process.
This is all new to me :)