Can't Wait

Yesterday, I went to Chicago to visit the school I plan on attending this spring. I seriously can't wait to go. Like my brother said, "It's a whole different world down there." It was scary and exciting all in one. Just awesome. Turns out that I was too early to do anything yet like scheduling, etc. The counselor gave me kudos on getting things done early as possible though. I have to wait till November to go to open house and orientation. Or January. I forgot which. The bad thing is that everything is early in the morning. My family wants to go with me to orientation and open house to check the school out. I don't mind that at all, I was actually surprised that they wanted to go. The thing is though, they are never on time for anything (except work). Ever. They were late to my brother's wedding a couple of years ago and my brother told them the wrong time on purpose (an earlier time) just so they can make it. That didn't even work. Well, I'll see how that goes.

A cop made my day <3

Who'd of thought that it would ever happen?? Sunday, I was waiting for my brother at a train station parking lot, listening to music with the car door wide open (there were a lot of bees flying around and if one happens to fly in, I can easily escape). I didn't notice the cop driving by and he parked right next to me and asked if everything was alright. He thought that I was stranded but everything was working fine and I told him I was waiting for my brother. I was feeling really bummed out that day and I guess he saw that in my face. He asked me what was wrong. I told him what was on my mind....after listening to what I had to say, he gave me some words of wisdom. Just lifted my spirits.....it's amazing what good things that strangers can do. And one that's a cop! Usually, they tend to ruin people's days, lol. I'm grateful for that conversation that we had.

Too soon?

So yeah, I faced my fears and told my crush about how I felt about him. He told me that he felt the same way but that we should just remain friends. That he's stressed out about some things in his life at the moment and don't want to start anything yet.

I don't believe what he told me. That's just a nicer way of saying no or not interested, I'm sure. But that's ok. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I'm proud of myself actually since this is a pretty big step for me. Usually, I wait for guys to come up to me. And if they don't, then in the end I missed out (kinda) for not taking that tiny risk.

Alright, my first ^_^

This is my first blog award and I am excited ^_^
Thank you so much Karilynnlove for giving me this award! I'm speechless, lol.

I believe it stands for Humor + Insane = Humane, lol :P

The Rules:
*Accept and post the award to your blog
*Link to the person from whom you received it
*Pass the award to 5 other blogs that are worthy of this acknowledgement
*Let them know they have been chosen for this award

People I nominated:
Ana Cristina
Otin
Rachel

Ok, it's only 3 blogs, I know. Maybe I just felt like rebelling a little.

This was not supposed to happen

Nothing can be done to prevent it from happening since my heart is not made of stone. Though at times, I wish it was. I try to build walls, and I do but it seems pretty pointless since they are easily broken. Haha, I'm the one that breaks them down for that one person to come through. So I can be vulnerable and endure the pain that comes my way.

"You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again"

-Regina Spektor

(Because secretly, we're all masochists.)

What a way to blow that cute phrase, huh? Haha, I'm joking. But it is truly hard to act like your heart was never broken. It's kinda like that whole "learning not to touch the stove" situation for me. I got hurt. Several times with different guys. Ok, what to do to prevent it from happening again? The answer is nothing. There is nothing that anyone can do except to build walls and even those fall.

Now...to tell or not to tell. I'm afraid to tell my crush how I feel. It's kinda insane to think that it's scary to tell someone:

Simple little words with so much meaning.

Women Proposing

Since it's not really traditional for women to propose marriage to men, you rarely hear stories about it happening. Some people think it's taboo for women to do it. I say why not?

If you want a memorable engagement take matters into your own hands—if you wait for him to do it you have no room to complain if it’s not what you wanted.

BUT don't make it all about you. I'm sure guys personalize it for the women, so the women should do the same. Well, just don't do that tacky, down on one knee proposal. It's ok for the guys to do it but since women don't go out and propose that often, it should be different, in my opinion.

Personally, I don't plan on getting married. I don't think that life is for me. But if my plans change, I would totally serenade a song to my guy, whoever that may(not)be. That's greedy of me though, since I love music and to sing horribly, lol. It's not like I can personalize it anyway. I'm single and plan to stay that way for a while.



The song I would sing is Andar Conmigo by Julieta Venegas. Yep, definitely greedy of me, haha. I love her, she is a genius.

How many singers out there can rock out an accordion?

Supposedly, there's been a rise in women proposing marriage. I'd love to hear stories about brave women who broke the mold and proposed to the love of their lives. *sigh* Anyone out there?? lol

Lets disappear till tomorrow

I love being spontaneous and the perfect day for me is to be able to run away for a day.

Sun's up, we wait...all day.

A road trip is a definite must. But to where? Honestly, it would be absolutely fun just to drive with no direction what so ever.


If only we could move away, from here.
Dis-a-ppe-ar!

Who would go with me? All of my friends, the more the merrier.

(That actually looks very uncomfortable.)

Eventually we'd find a spot, preferably a field of grass in the middle of nowhere with a small lake to swim in.


Hmm....what to eat? I'd bring a small grill with to have a cook out. Hamburgers, brats, kabobs...anything goes.

And drinking beer of course.


When the day is over, we head back to our lives again.

Sun down now we have built our place
Re-a-ppe-ar!

Click to listen

So yeah, that would be an excellent way to spend a day, running away from life. I'm sure that I'll make this day happen one day =]

I follow a blogger named Stephanie and she does a group blog every Thursday. This week is about perfect days.
Click here to read about other people's perfect days and follow her!